Why people hate their job?

We all know that we spend more than 50% of our time in work, yet how many of us are really looking forward to come to office? I am sure some of us do, however similarly there are plenty of us, if not hate, but forced to come to work. I figure the reason is very obvious when the job don't give you a sense of achievement. The can be many reasons, among them are lack of job satisfaction or mismatch in job expectation. And due to the mismatch in expectation, the management sometimes set unrealistic goals. When everyone is fighting for their own cause, that creates frictions and conflicts. Especially so in office environment, there are always people who like to bulldoze through their objective by pressure. For me, I come to this situation whereby someone who just always over-interpret my message. For a simple act of asking of information, he misread that i'm challenging the authority. All the aggregation of problem really keep me wonder if i'm in the right job. I love the work i'm doing, but the complication of office interaction with people really tick me off. sigh~

Who are my friends? Who are my real friends?

Every morning I have a good 10 minutes walks before i reach office. One of the these trips, my mind swayed while i walked. With no specific reason, a question popped up, "who are my friends?", i probably can name a few... then i grill a bit more, "who are my real friends?"... i halted, and can't give a name.

I knew the problem rooted within me, because i just need to turnaround the question then i knew the answer. Who will i treat them as real friends? i can't be sure to myself. As I get elder and supposedly wiser, I keep things within myself to trade with the feeling of security. Friendship erodes from the center of the stage of my life, replacing them is my family and undisputed me and myself.

I no longer the teenager me, and I'm learning to befriend with loneliness.

If i desire enough, will i get it?

This afternoon I have one round of conversation with my regional senior about one business decision. We came to a small debate about our different view on this decision. Although I am still not convinced by his reasoning, but I totally agreed with him that I have to beef up my communication. Unfortunately this is what matter most to a "consultant", communication determine 50% (or more) of our success, it's not even whether we are make a clever judgement / action. He sharply pick up that I have to avoid the repetitive words like "I know" and "But" etc. We have totally different stands in few issues, but I am overwhelmed and not able to convince him, even i am convicted with my belief. Again, that shows how sucks i am. I don't agree with some of his stands, but he can swarm me with his speech until I have to give way to resists. No doubt this is something that i need to improve on, the pitiable able side of the story, the world is not always reigned by the best decision maker, but the best persuader. I am not saying that i'm the right one in this scenario, i just figure if someone who can persuade but not making the right decision, that where things break and failed in this world.